Patience

I am learning a lesson about patience, but I wish it were over now! I guess that's why I need to learn it. We wanted to buy a new house, but due to a complicated financial situation, we must wait. We have both gone for interviews for new jobs, but we must wait to hear the answers.

When I found out about having to wait to make an offer on the house, I was so disappointed that I cried myself to sleep. We live in a house that's way too small for us. Stuff is junked wherever I can find room. I want to move to a bigger house so that we have air to breathe and room to stretch.

I was sitting in my tiny kitchen a few mornings ago, thinking about our situation, and feeling sorry for myself. Suddenly, I heard that still, small voice inside my heart. I listened.

It seems that the house we are in was picked out especially for us for just the right time in our lives. I remembered that when we found it, there were no better options on the market and we were in a crunch situation. God knew what He was doing and He provided this place for us for this time.

Usually, I don't have much tolerance for things that don't go my way or that I can't understand. That's a human failing. Most of what God does in my life requires me to have faith beyond my ability. That's why He says in His Word that we should wait on Him and fear not. He says that His grace is sufficient for us. In situations like these, I rely on His grace so much that I know it has to be neverending. His grace allows me to calm down and think things through.

I believe God knows what He's doing and that He will not let us drop from his hands. His ways are nothing like this world we live in, where a simple mistake is cause for harsh retibution and ridicule. God's grace allows us to stumble again and again and to get back up and try until we finally make it and see that He has been standing there cheering us on the whole time.

I hope to have a good ending for this house and job episode in our lives. God told me to be patient, but I know He has good things in store. And when they have come about, I will be faithful to write them down and share the joys of His love with everyone.